I’ve been writing a large website from scratch in two weeks. Since I write for a living, sometimes I just don’t have the energy to blog when I get home.

I guess this is the time in my life I should be totally dedicated to my career anyway, pouring all my energy into it. I’m in my twenties, I don’t have any kids yet, and I’ve still got the energy to throw myself into anything heart and soul. I really do love my work, but more than that, I get emotionally attached to anything I’m doing. As a result, when I’m working on something at work I don’t really leave it at work.

On that note, today the labour ended and I gave birth to a beautiful baby website. Did I just say that? I can’t help it, it’s true. Clearly I need to go out and socialize with humans this weekend.

I just got home and I haven’t seen any life forms yet except the dogs – not that they’re not absurdly cute. The boy’s not home yet – girly music time!

I started listening to Ani Difranco for the first time in 10 years. Not sure what made me pick that old CD, but I can’t get enough of her tonight. I remember why I loved her music so much as a teenager, though I now get it on a whole different level.

It reminds me of my camp girlfriends. I can’t wait to plan our next rendez-vous, most likely this summer in Vermont. Time to stop blogging and make some calls to old friends. Maybe I’m still human after all… Thanks Ani.

Sometimes, it seems like you’ll never work again.

So, what do you do?

First off, it’s okay to come out and say:
“This completely and totally sucks.”
“How annoying.”
“How arbitrary. “

We can all relate to that very kind of frustration, and I certainly can as a freelancer, having been there MANY times over the years.

No matter how down you get, the key is keeping your attitude on track. If you loose that spark, you’ll never find a job. So, take a moment to be pissed off. But remember this:

While you may not be suited to a particular position, your worth and value is not up for question.

Sometimes it’s not about being the smartest or most qualified.

This is clearly one of those
“hard-to-tell-what-the-lesson-is-
that-I-am-being-forced-to-learn-right-now-
I-thought-I-had done-my-homework-in-this-spot-
but-ok-here-we-go-again-
I-guess-I’ll-look-back-one-day-and-be-happy”
moments.

Things will present themselves to you in their time. Just keep moving forward.